Who moved my cheese?!!

- Sometimes, it is wise to put yourself in someone's shoes.


School has been a good place for me. I've made friends - FUN ones. Yea, that's right. Motivation for me to go school. :D
But something happened again today, and that totally pissed me off.

Lecture is something I'm concerned about. Because it's hard to obtain the lecture notes from your friends, even if you do, you might just be 'blindly' copying. That's why I didn't bug my friend further for her lecture notes on the days when I'm sick anymore. Although this good friend of mine in school, Eileen, is nice enough to find time to teach me what she has learnt, I can't keep doing this. I feel guilty. But I'm really touched and grateful when people come forward and offer help to me.

However, not everybody is the same. Another friend of mine, let's call her Q, I have noticed her dozing off/daydreaming/smsing during lectures. Usually, Q and I sit together for lectures. So what she does is, she kept borrowing my notes to "copy". All she does is to write down everything that is shown on the slides, she doesn't bother to listen carefully to whatever information that the professor said.  I can say that her notes are just plain as the slides. On the other hand, I'm the typical type of student who will listen for extra tips and note down on my handwritten lecture notes while taking down everything that is shown on the slides. Much effort is needed in order to get a good set of lecture notes. 

In that case, whatever information that I spend effort understanding and analysing is simply "copied" away by her. What's the point? Does she understands my work? What is she taking me for? 

I lost patience with her today. Finally. It's not the first time and I've been tolerating. 

On her 1st attempt to borrow my notes today (Usually she waits for me to finish writing a piece of paper before asking):

Q: I borrow your notes for awhile.
Me: Why? What do you need to copy? (She had taken away my piece of notes when I asked this. And I was hinting her already.)
Q: I cannot catch what the professor is saying. (Then she read my extra information and take down whatever she likes)

Nevermind. Trying to be calm and focus on the lecture again.

2nd attempt, during the lecture break:

Q: Later when you are done, can I borrow your notes? (it's not a qns anymore you see, not a favour, but it's a must that I lend her my notes)
Me: Wait first, I'm writing down somemore points.
Q: How come you got so many things to write about? (she sounded surprised here)
Me: Because I was paying attention to the lecturer and now I'm trying to figure out the entire picture.

The break ended before I managed to complete what I wanted to add on. So everything goes fine. I prayed that she would stop bugging me for my notes. Nothing of such happened. At the end of the lecture, she asked for my entire set of lecture notes(excluded the last page. I believed she knew there isn't much extras in that page. I always catch her looking at my notes during lecture, to see what I'm writing). This time, I know I can no longer be so 'nice' to her anymore.

Me: You must try to catch what the professor is saying during lecture. Otherwise, I don't know how you can cope well next time.
Q: I always don't understand what he is saying.
Me: Just write down whatever you hear. I also don't get it sometimes. But when you  finally got the time to read the entire thing, most likely you will understand one.

I don't remember what she said or maybe, she didn't respond to me. She just started vacuuming my efforts. Then everybody left the lecture theatre except Q, Eileen and I. I signalled to Eileen about Q. She asked me if I told Q anything about my unhappiness. And I did tried to hint to Q already. Either she's insensitive or I'm taken for granted. Worst still, she asked me if I need to leave or need the notes for revision. And she can return to me the notes when she sees me tomorrow. Wtf. Trying to be nice and bullying me all at once. I said firmly, "I need my notes back. "

Seriously, I don't mind telling Q whatever things I've learnt, if Q bothers to ask me in the first place rather than just copying. I swear. Fking angry whenever I think of it. Ever since the last time Jialing bullied me in primary school by borrowing my prefect tie whenever she likes, I really hate it when people take my stuffs as if they have the rights to do so. 

Perhaps, her primary purpose of friends is just like many others - the need for lecture notes whenever you are not in school. 

She is in school, in the lecture with me and is doing this to me. Anyway, if she is absent and asks for my notes I will try to forget because I have no intention to lend it to someone who is plain lazy. Eileen, and my other friends are fine so far - cos they don't ask for my notes for unnecessary reference. 

I admit that I'm individualistic - in a negative way. And that my piece of work might not even be helpful in the first place. But I emphasize on personal property. What's mine is mine. Don't ever try to spend your time depending on other's hard work, unless you're such a loser.


the end of my grumpy day.

 

Darlings... or strangers whatever, I've been very sick.

Last week, I was down with fever and had a really bad sorethroat. Then my wisdom tooth was so pain that I need to visit a dentist.
And so I visited the dentist in my school and did  wisdom tooth removal surgery. The after-effect was(is) bad. My mouth is swollen. You can literally see a squared-face me. I can't touch my right side of my face. It hurts really bad.

Now, my body is full of rashes. I think the medicine is the culprit. Hais. Damn cui. Should I say it's a super unlucky period for me?

I miss all of you so much. I was telling weicong I haven't met my friends for sometime. Maybe I will recover faster with the support of my 'strangers'! heh heh!

Lately, I'm busy with my school project. I've been exploring AMK at night to look for homeless people. Got to do interview with 10 of them! It was fun though, but at the same time, you have to wake them up from their sweet dreams and they might be like fucking pissed off because of that. To see the "other" side of Singapore, I do feel abit sorry for these people. Somehow, they think otherwise. They said, "I'm very happy, very happy with my life. I'm a free man. Freedom." Then later, "Sometimes I need to console myself, and have to 苦中做乐." Contradicting. But it's understandable. Nobody would really like to sleep in outside, feeling scared and lonely. Maybe there is - the "different" kind of people.

Anyway I need to shit now bye! 

 This entry is posted just for you! 


HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY!!!! 


May you be as cheerful as before! You can do it! And most importantly, get yourself a suitable job!!! HAHAHA!

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